Fear

I am afraid of the unseen
The unheard creapy things
That find way to my soul
And distort its share of grace

I am afraid of nothing
The pain that runs unfelt
Till the day it cant run no more
And burst flood into your heart

I am afraid of this and that
Things you laugh about
So long as they silently find their way
into the hidden chambers of my heart

I am afraid of a traitor
That wrestle to transpire
From the very depth of my soul
Only to dehumanize my essence

I am afraid of a dream
That ceases to breath
and fade with the passing wind

The Confusion II: Apologies

what gift could suppress?
the depth of your presence in my life?
You shared with me
both wisdom and dreams

Look where i stand now
Intelligence has become an offense
to the dreams you gave me
and the beauty of your presence

I am not without emotions
for through broken perspectives
I can see the pain i caused
and the anguish in Heaven

Read like ancient masters
With a memory fluid
I conquered the barriers of learning
But where are the dreams?

I felt them slip through my fingers
in the mute pursuit of happiness
let my verses tell tales of my being

I wrote it all for my own conviction
So to be my own witness
When i account for my dreams

For the dreams that faintly cry
calling for a better world
calling for a better man

you taught me to write
with metaphors and figures
But look what it is now
a reflection of despair

my poetry is menace
nothing but an echo of despair
whether i write, what good has it been?
my lines are haunted by demons
could it be all for this?
how could it be?

The Confusion I: Confessions

I was born into the world
The world never in me
My soul kept pure
in the depth of my essence

like a hunger-stricken kid
my heart drifted away
on both both roses and thorns
my heart fell through the days

all i hungered for was love
but in the coldness of warmth
we tossed in a passionate lock
and i bid farewell to blindness

Though it was a summer day
my winter began
drop by drop, i could feel
the world dripping into me

Before i embraced an angel
there was God
just a moment in passion
and God was no more

How much could i hate?
laying down in pollution
defiled by countless encounters
yet i embraced the moments

glory to my unearned blindness
touched a friend
a smile, a hug,a cuddle
nothing was ever the same

She was just a girl
being a girl
and before she could tell
everything was altered, no longer the same

in my blindness
i saw no God, no man
A river that silently crawled
stood still in a flood of affection

I thought i could run
from the heart of my sins
until the day i became a traitor
a conspirator against my own heart

in a moment, defiled innocence
that was a flow of blood
until i could not say holiness
but fold like a disgraced angel

The same flow that blinded my conscience
Saw me die a bitter death
When i bred a renewed flow
gulping for salvation

peace, peace, where are you?
i have murdered my own sleep
found rest in diverged attention
but how can i not crave, peace

Have you seen a monster?
Made of your own image
is this the final destination?
calling my soul to eternal solitude

When a dream dies

When a dream dies
So does the hope for a future
Stuck out of depth
A heart beating tunes of tomorrow
But when that only dream dies
And wash away
So does the will to live
and walk another hour
in this journey of life

When a dream dies
So does the prospect of a good life
and the hands that lifted it

The color is purple

Your love blinded my soul
Saw me part ways with
with life-long comrades
in defense of an emotion deep
But now i am not too sure
Which color i see
In these eyes
In the eyes
That once radiated with love
Is it red? Or should i be going?
Maybe be green or blue
But not love

Death

Death, what union have i with thee?
When tears rid our joys
like dust on its trails
I call upon thee
to open the chambers of your heart
let me see the root of your sting
perhaps uproot its manliness
or pluck an eye into your conscience
for you have blindly tramped on us
leaving us desolate in sorrow

Death, we dont need you

The Tree

It is a tree
rooted in the depth of sorrow
Nourished of human blood
erected on human souls
Until now, this dawn

Here is a tree
That has longed for its share
of the bright summer sunlight
That has longed flood the skies

Now a shoot is off
Like a current of furious rivers
Ready for the stars
for the dream life
basking on the sunlight

It is a tree
growing in a heart full of skepticism
Devoid of trust

The last day

When you disappear
From my horizons
I hope you look back
To the warmth left behind

At the brake of dawn
I rushed to see your first smile
Your eyes giggling in delight
But now its all fading memories

A sweet memory that trimmed each dusk
With a warm embrace of your soul
and a word in kindness
to keep the night soft and tender

Soon you disappear
And wave goodbye
I will not cry nor brake down
But cherish moments in our memories

Moments coloured with a smile
Wrapt in the tenderness of your presence
and how we basked
in the each others comfort

My world of sins shut out
and you myopic past hidden
Only you and I breathing
In the glory of our love

Emotions beyond depth
though it started in a menace
the articulation of lust
But it grew wings

We shared my bed
My soul open to you
Your heart beating my rhymes
to our delight

But soon everything fades
and so does my existence
a saddening contemplation
of such a gruesome day

Your smile, that Kiss
your embrace and sweet breath
The last i know
Betrayed by time and the mute pursuits

Hopeful

You know the tears
of a dumbstruck lone boy
crying to a God
hoping He bless his soul
For all the joys missed
And all the pains swallowed

When the music stops
And there is no more hope
For the little boy
Running short of love
Looking up to a God
As if to curse Him

Whether the sun shines down
There is hope for another day
When his soul will be bitterly bruised again

Unfaithful

I smile
A cold stare
Flaked with deep seated resentment
Is all i receive back

Sweet smiles are no more
A stranger now receives my kiss
I am not sure
Even as i see her standing here

I reach closer
A step back and a turn
Disgusted by a kiss she once longed for
A love she called her own

All night in the cold
Waiting for love to rise again
And revive my soul
Like it was before the City